What is my message? Why does it get stuck in my craw coming out? Not literally, since I am writing it and not speaking it, but still. I will try some “trial” messages here.
You can overcome the rejection wound and be who you really are, because you are wanted, loved and accepted.
You can overcome the rejection wound and live in full expression of joyful creativity.
actually I think that’s really it. I think what is happening to me is that I am being attacked by fear, which is trying to stop me from doing this. So I will not give up.
I remember the day that my being unwanted reached its zenith. I was 16 and it was the day my mother dropped me off at the corner with my suitcase and said goodbye. I wasn’t at the bus stop on my way to grandmother’s house, or heading out to girl scout camp. The corner was my new home and my mother was abandoning me there. Looking back, I think that was just the final touch on what had really been a lifelong rejection of me by my mother. I couldn’t see it then, being a child and right in the middle of it.
But I don’t want to dwell on the bad things that happened to me. I don’t have time for that anymore because I have taken a new path in life. My path is marked with signs along the way: “I love you.” “I want you.” “I appreciate you just as you are.” “You are significant.” These signs were lovingly painted and placed there by God. And I want you to know that this is the way God feels about you too.
Maybe you haven’t experienced God as the one who loves you and accepts you. Maybe you don’t even believe that a creative, divine, eternal God exists. That’s ok, this message still applies to you because I can tell you without a doubt that you are loved, accepted, and appreciated by something (someone?) bigger than you.
You were rejected and so there’s a voice inside you that keeps telling you that you are trash. After all, that’s what you do with trash, right? You throw it away, and that’s what happened to you. Whether it was one or both of your parents, your best friend, your lover, or all of the above, rejection can leave a wound that doesn’t heal easily.