I am thankful for a husband who isn’t afraid to sit with me in my struggles against old demons. He is doing God’s work in my life. There is no more present and immediate call than to be Jesus to your family and my husband is living that calling each and every day. I never feel abandoned by him. He is always there for me and for our kids. I want to be like him when I grow up. “Follow me as I follow Jesus.”
One thing that writing tens of thousands of words about yourself will do is make you sick of yourself. I think that’s probably a good thing. After I’m done with this memoir project I hope to be able to focus on others a lot more than I have been. As a mother you think about your kids a lot, all the time; Darin and I talk about them and fret some and compare notes and hope and dream and plot and pray for them. But as I move into a new stage of life and my role as a mother changes to one of less prominence, I’d like to spend time caring for the needs of others in some way. I don’t know what that will look like but the idea of it feels like a refreshing change.
I got my words written this morning; 622 words and just over 11k to go by December 3rd to reach 65k.