Hey Tina, hey Tina, whatcha doin whatcha doin, your mind is claiming all the space in the room, you’re finding that you’re doomed to sitting and spinning your wheels when you should sit and spin your tales
don’t let your thoughts be claimed by someone else who doesn’t know your heart and wants to see you fail
you are clear to do this – just do this one little thing at a time the elephant is standing there waiting so get to it
your providence is on your lap
your creator is to your left
all is well
more than conquerors more than conquerors more than conquerors
when people prove themselves imperfect you throw them away
why do you do that
you excise them from your life like burning off warts
that’s not nice
that’s not even a nice way to think about it
last night I dreamed I was friends with a friend again and she’d had a baby
and in the dream when I saw the baby I didn’t think, omg what a miracle that her husband agreed to have a baby with her and I thought she was in menopause (actually that never even occurred to me until just now) but later in the dream I did think, oh what a wonderful thing that she had a baby, it was all she wanted
and as I sit here I wonder if it made her happy to finally have what she wanted
But in dreams we don’t always get all the details
so many times in dreams I get to breastfeed a baby
I wish I could still do that, but only to my own babies
when I get to heaven I want to have more babies and love them very well
If I could go back and love my babies better I would
I would do it in a heart beat even with the heartache
knowing that I could do it better because of what I know now
it would be worth it
oh and to my credit I really don’t hold people to perfection
come on Tina be honest with yourself
come on Tina be loving with yourself
the people who are outside your circle are there for a reason and it’s not because they’re not perfect
they stepped on your soul out of order
to continue would have done nothing to help them and only would have hurt you
so it’s really kind of nice that you let them go
it’s really kind of nice
